The Significance of the Holiday Spirit; Spreading Love and Generosity

The holidays are my favorite time of the year. Once we pass Halloween and get close to Thanksgiving I know it’s (basically) an acceptable time to bring out all of my Christmas leggings, shirts, tubie pads, and of course the hippo who sings Christmas carols.

It’s kind of funny that this is my favorite time of the year since health wise it’s often the most challenging. I was diagnosed with gastroparesis in December of 2013; this will be my 5th year not eating a Thanksgiving meal, my 5th year without any pie or turkey, my 5th year not having any snacks or candy in my stocking, my 5th year not eating our traditional Christmas brunch, and my 5th year seriously struggling with my health during the holidays.

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Our favorite gifts… donut pillows and blankies 🙂

But really, these holidays don’t have to revolve around food. I have much more to be thankful for even without eating. I have so much beauty and love in my life and I’ve found new passions and hobbies that not only bring me joy but help distract me from pain, hunger, and other symptoms as well as from the thoughts of all that my illnesses have taken or changed in my life; I prefer to focus on all that I’ve gained, all of the positive changes, and all of the things I’ve learned about myself and about life just from becoming so sick and being homebound.

The Christmas spirit is such a beautiful thing. I’m not even sure I loved it so much before being sick, but now I appreciate it endlessly. Even for people who don’t really like Christmas or don’t celebrate it, there’s just a contagious feeling of joy, love, generosity, and comradery that we lack during the rest of the year.

As I’ve gotten older it’s become less about gifts and food (obviously #tubiereality) and more about sharing that joy and love with others as well as finding joy in giving.

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Baxter stayed up for Santa 😉

I love finding special gifts for my loved ones but also finding ways to share with the less fortunate; sometimes this means giving money or gifts, sometimes meals or just festive cookies, or othertimes it is giving other gifts that I can make like simple cards with meaningful words, a painting, or a simple necklace or bracelet that I have made. In the past we have given gifts and food to local families or children who were in need, sent boxes of gifts to children in different areas or countries, and this year I’ve started a new nonprofit called “Newbie Tubies” for other individuals who are getting feeding tubes for the first time! I’m setting up both an online wish list and will eventually be asking for monetary donations for extra supplies and shipping, but I’m also selling my paintings in hopes to raise money to send out these packages to help ease the transition for new tubies.

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Breaking out the festive tubie pads 🙂

The holidays are a beautiful and special time. It’s filled with love and joy, gatherings with friends and family, and the gift of giving. If you’re able to give, I suggest finding a way to give to someone who is in need, whether that be an individual person or a family who could use some Christmas cheer, volunteering at the food bank or soup kitchen, or donating to an organization of your choice that is donating to those in need; ‘tis the season of giving and spreading the holiday spirit. <3

Lots of love and an early wish of happy holidays! 🙂

Chronically Thankful

Happy Thanksgiving!

For me, Thanksgiving is a little different since it obviously won’t revolve around food. I rely on my tube feeds and IV fluids for nutrition and hydration, and food isn’t a big priority for me. Because of this, I get to focus more on the real meaning of Thanksgiving: it is a celebratory day at the end of harvest where we express gratitude for all that we have.

I may not have had a harvest, but I have so much to be thankful for. Some people are surprised at how often I post about my gratitude and positivity towards life, but my illnesses have only made me more thankful for all that I have. So, while I won’t be saying thanks for a good meal or a nice glass of wine this Thanksgiving, here are a few things I am thankful for…

  1. My family

Okay, the first one is a little cliché, but for me, my family is more than just a family. At 20 years old I still live at home full-time with my parents and younger sister. My parents are my caregivers; they take me to appointments, make my tube feeds, pick up medications, and on my worst days help me in and out of bed, mom washes/brushes my hair, and they do anything else I may need. My parents and sister are also my best friends. I spend almost every day at home and they are pretty much the only people I see (and Sam– Laura’s boyfriend 🙂 ); they work hard to find things to do to try to entertain me and keep me occupied. Without my family, I wouldn’t be here today.

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  1. My dogs

My rescue pup, Baxter, is my #1 form of therapy. He is better than any medication I’ve tried. Being home alone a lot is made so much easier by having dogs. Baxter is always by my side and knows when I’m having a bad day. He loves to cuddle up with me (and my heating pad) when I need a nap, sit in the sun, take a walk, or just lay in bed and watch some Netflix. He is a fabulous buddy to have around 🙂

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  1. Tyler

Almost five years ago I was blessed enough to be assigned Tyler as my challenger baseball buddy. Every day I am thankful that he came into my life and that he continues to make it brighter every time I see him! It has been such a gift to see him grow and to have him by my side to shed some light on things throughout this journey!

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  1. Insurance

I’m thankful for my health insurance. Even though it can be a pain in my butt when it doesn’t cover something or fights me on a medication/treatment, I will always be thankful that I have it. Some people are not so lucky.

  1. Living in a beautiful place

We recently moved into the woods in Union Springs. We are surrounded by trees and live a short drive/walk from a reservoir and several ponds and creeks. It is so peaceful and beautiful up here and we live in an area with such gorgeous mountains, farms, and parks. I love having such beautiful sites, it is such a gift to be able to go for a drive and see such incredible views so close to home.

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  1. Doctors and Nurses

I can’t forget all of my great doctors, nurses, and pharmacists. They work so hard for me and for all of their other patients. I have amazing nurses who work around the clock helping me communicate with the doctors, schedule appointments, and think through symptoms and minor medical dilemmas. My doctors work so hard with patients whose cases are so complex. And my pharmacists help keep track of my meds, interactions, and refills. I literally wouldn’t be here today if it weren’t for them.

  1. Warmth

I’m always cold. September-April you can count on me being bundled up and under a heating pad. I am thankful for my sweaters, hats, heating pads, heated blankets, fuzzy socks, and mostly for my comfy bed! Also, of course, for my home and heat; not everyone is so lucky, so take time to be thankful for warmth this year!

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  1. Community

I’m also very thankful to have a supportive and loving community. My community here at home has shown my family and me so much support throughout my journey with chronic illnesses and it has made such a difference for us. Knowing you have such a big support team is such a gift, and not everyone has that.

I’ve also found a community of people living with illnesses just like mine through online support networks. These sites have let me connect with people from all over the world who are going through the same thing that I am. I’ve made great friends who really understand what I am facing and I’m even lucky enough to hang out with some of them in person!

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My list could go on, but there’s a taste of what I’m thankful for! I also think this year it is important to remember that many of our Native Americans are facing brutal conditions in North Dakota while they fight for their right for clean water and for their sacred lands at Standing Rock. Thanksgiving is a day that celebrates a peaceful meal between the settlers and the Native Americans, yet this year there is no peace at Standing Rock.

There are many things we often take for granted, and today is a day to be reminded of how much gratitude we should have for all of these things. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and can find lots to be thankful for!

First Post– Holiday Spirit

Hey guys! So, for my first blog post I didn’t want to start out with anything too heavy, but with Thanksgiving only a week away, I thought why not write a bit about what the holidays are like for someone living with chronic illness!

This will be my 4th year of holidays majorly affected by Gastroparesis. In fact, my Gastroparesis started in November of 2013, right before Thanksgiving. Little did I know, three years later I still wouldn’t be able to eat a Thanksgiving meal!

Although I really miss all of the delicious foods that I loved eating throughout the holidays and sometimes this time of the year can be stressful; for the most part, I still really enjoy the holiday season. I love to cook and bake for others and occasionally I can make something that I can have a bite of, too. I also just love the holiday spirit that seems to brighten everyone’s mood during this time of the year.

My health has really taken a hit this year, and I’m not able to do a lot of the things I love to do like volunteer, babysit, go to school, and regularly spend time with people outside of my home. However, I do intend to make the most of the holidays in every way I can!

Here are just a few of the things I love about the holidays:

  1. Picking out and decorating the Christmas tree
  2. Baking Christmas cookies of all sorts
  3. Snow—even though I barely leave the house when it’s so cold!
  4. Christmas movies
  5. The gift of giving— whether it’s Christmas shopping, giving away Christmas cookies, or donating to the less fortunate, I always find that the holidays are full of generosity and I love to participate in the giving 🙂

This holiday season I will be taking each moment to enjoy life’s small gifts. I encourage you to appreciate everything you might normally take for granted—a functioning GI tract, the roof over your head, a mother who cooks for you, and just being here to celebrate another holiday season.